I would exhort you to keep on all-out seeking the God of the Bible because He will never forget you.
Why? Well, because I like to tell myself and my closest friends to do this.. to keep seekin' the Lord (the God of the Bible) with all.. not half.. your heart. And listen, if you do this.. you won't have an unmet need and you won’t have any time left over to seek things that are bad for you and others. You'll be more protective and concerned about others.
Yeah, there ya have it. Prayin' to and seekin' the Lord all out... that's how to see all of our needs met and how to develop a good name that honors our great God (see Matt. 6:33). It's how we can continue to be a good witness to the world as well. That's so important! Just be yourself.
Therefore, I encourage you to focused on Christ more.. cuz your feeling about yourself and your situation can be fickle. Walk by faith in Jesus, not by feelings. God sees you with the righteousness of Christ cuz of His bloodshed at Calvary on the Cross, so keep on seeking Him in His word, in prayer, in fellowship with ..both small-group or larger group Bible studies, and while sharing your faith in Jesus. He loves you and He is there to help you and me have a good name for his glory.
You know how the Old Testament book of Proverbs frequently encourages us in seeking Him, and how it contrasts the reputations of wise and foolish people saying...
“The memory of the righteous is blessed, but the name of the wicked will rot.. He who walks with integrity walks securely, but he who perverts his ways will become known” (Prov. 10: 7,9).
King Solomon sums it up so well for us by saying, “A good name is to be chosen rather than great riches, loving favor rather than silver and gold” (22: 1).
Yes, it ain't for us so much.. we seek a good name, not to honor ourselves but to glorify Christ our Lord whose name is above all names. Some people at times might try to say untrue things about us to smear our names, but the Lord is our rearguard so to speak and He will help us rep His holy Name both in public and in private.
Lord God, I praise you for guiding, for empowering, for helping and for providing daily. You know exactly what is good for us - what is best, and You desire to lead us in righteous paths that are right and good for the whole Body of Christ. Help us be effective witnesses in this world so that we can lead some of the people to you.. in salvation. Give us the courage to trust and to follow Jesus in the way of right living no matter where we go.. yes, for Your glory and Name’s sake. In Jesus Name. Amen. Blessings to you as you live in the Word of God.